This week has had a few scary days. I went to bed Friday night with terrible stomach pains and was up all night with them. They started quite high up above my bump and then worsened as they worked their way down. The following day it felt as if I had done 1000 sit ups, it was painful to walk and my bump was very tender to the touch all down the right hand side. As you can probably imagine, I was imagining the worst and was preparing myself for the unthinkable. However, the pain was gone by Sunday and baby has continued to kick away ever since. I suffer from the occasional bout of IBS when stressed and I think this was the culprit – I must really learn not to stress so much!
I had the first appointment with my consultant on Friday who gave me some great news! She said that as long as my pregnancy goes well and that my blood pressure doesn’t rise in the meantime, there is no reason why I can’t try for a normal birth (it’s called a VBAC). This was great to hear because I was convinced that they would book me in for a c-section this time because of the severe pre-eclampsia I suffered with my son. My husband wasn’t so pleased to hear this news. I think that he was hoping that I would be booked in and that he wouldn’t have to worry about the risk of history repeating itself. I suppose it’s different for him – he was the one who had to stand there feeling helpless when it all happened, whereas I was a bit out of it so don’t remember much – he doesn’t want to see it all happen again or risk any damage to me or the baby. However, for me, getting to give birth naturally (or at least try) is so important. It’s the one incredible thing which I feel like I should be able to do as a woman. I want to feel the pain and then experience the emotions as my son or daughter is handed to me and think, ‘I did that’. I also don’t want all the painful recovery time which comes after a c-section! Staying in hospital for extra days, not being able to move for a day, not being able to drive for 6 weeks – erg, who would want any of that if they didn’t have to?! SO, we shall just have to watch this space and see what happens between now and then.
Next time I write, I’ll be able to tell you the gender – place your bets now! 🙂