Erg! I have been feeling physically exhausted this week! It probably doesn’t help that I have a hacking cough and have started potty training my son – I have found this is such a tiring job! It’s constantly, ‘Sid, do you need the potty? Sid are you sure you don’t need a wee wee?’ and I don’t feel like I can relax for a second just in case I miss a sign that he needs a wee and he lets go on my beige rug! However, much to my amazement, he is picking it up so fast that by the time the baby arrives, I should have one less bum to change! Hoorah! I also keep forgetting that I am nearly six months pregnant and keep trying to do just as much as I did before, then wondering why I feel so tired and achey. I went food shopping Tuesday and I guess the trolley-pushing took it’s toll because by the afternoon, I was pooped! I sometimes feel really bad moaning about how tired I feel to my husband because he is currently working loads of extra hours at work and I don’t want him to think that I’m being insensitive to how tired he must being feeling too, but at the same time, I’m finding it hard to hide the tiredness this time around. Having a toddler at the same time as being pregnant is certainly taking it out of me physically!
The baby is a little wriggler now and we can plainly see him kick just by looking at my bump! It’s nice to see but even though I have experienced it before, it still feels kind of ‘Alien’ to think that there is another human being in there making that happen! So strange, yet so amazing. I think he’s around 28cm long now, from crown to heel – that’s pretty big when you hold up one of those 30cm rulers and try to imagine it inside of you!
I worked out today that I only have about three months left at work – that is not long at all! I’m not sure how I feel about this really. I remember the first time I went on maternity leave, I couldn’t wait! I was under the assumption that it was all going to be lazy days in front of the TV with the baby asleep in one hand and a chocolate biscuit in the other. However, after having my son, I am not that naive anymore! I am well aware of the severe tiredness, relentless washing, constant nappy changing and general exhaustion I am going to feel (and that was without a toddler to look after as well!). I currently work three days a week and love this home/work life balance – it gives me lots of time to spend with my son and just enough time to spend being ‘Kelly’ again at work. In fact, work is like a break sometimes! I am hoping that this time around though, it won’t be such a shock to my system, that I am prepared for what a new baby will bring and so will settle into it a lot easier. Think I will still miss work a bit though (maybe I’m mad?).